G-DRAGON- 그XX/그새끼 [UNCENSORED | ENG.]

Were you getting sick of the bleeping sound while listening to this song like I was? Well, I've got an uncensored version right here with English subs. I know it's a swear word that's dubbed inappropriate for those under 19 but heck, we all have mature minds that won't get rotten just from hearing a curse word. Don't you think it's important to listen to the whole song without being distracted by the bleeping sound? It just disrupts the whole flow of the song, na' mean? Besides, the lyrics of this song expresses the pain of a man who tries to suppress his feelings for a friend who's taken. 

"They say love is blind. Oh, baby, you so blind"

Being attached to an unfaithful man and yet living in denial is our heroine who's snatched GD's heart. Refusing to believe that her boyfriend would cheat on her and giving him her full trust, she's an ignorant one. They say ignorant is bliss but it doesn't apply in relationships. 

"What does that bastard have that I don't? Exactly why can't I have you?"

"That bastard doesn't love you. Until when are you going to cry like a fool?"

GD, on the other hand, in short, has been friendzoned. Yup, that's the only way to put it. He feels like dying every time he sees her sad but there's nothing he can do. She's happiest when she's with him and that's what friends do, right? Support each other? 

NO! 

YOU'VE GOT IT WRONG! 

I know it's just a song but in reality, this isn't what you should do! You can't just stand idly by when the girl you love is being two-three-four-timed! This is why there's so many cliched Korean dramas out there! 

The pain of unrequited love. 

Like a few thousand jabs to the heart. But worse. 

I'm not telling you to go about breaking good relationships apart just cause of what you read here, but seriously. If that man's bad for her, let her know. So many woman live in denial and sure enough, they'll come to regret it someday. Because the REAL person who loved her didn't step up. 

What's worse than an unrequited love? 

NOT KNOWING. 

That uncertainty will haunt you forever. 

I've just got one thing to say; "If you love her, LET HER KNOW!"

I didn't mean for this to become a rant but it just did. ahahha. 

미안!

Go on and enjoy the pain! (Turn on 'CC' to view subs!)


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REALIZATION

When I was younger, I always thought that failure does not define a person's future. And of course, I still think the same. It's the truth. However, getting over your failure, moving on and striving to achieve your best, that's the hard part. I always try to pick the pieces of my life back, convince myself that I'll try much MUCH harder the next time but more often than not, it never works out the way I want it to. Why? Because I never do try hard enough. And there's no one to blame but myself.

Because we're all different. 

Some people are born smart (and I'm not just saying it cause I'm in a spiteful mood). Some people have the discipline and perseverance to get what they want. And some people JUST KNOW what they want in life. I know it's unfair to myself for writing up this post. To give up before a fight. But how do people know how much fight is left in them before they stop? I'm sure I'm not the only teenager (I like to tell myself that I still am one) out there who feels this way. But why does this feeling weigh so heavily in my chest, it's making it hard for me to even breathe? Do all successful people know what they want in life? Is that why they're successful? 

Maybe it's because I'm Asian. All Asian parents ever want out of their children are A's. Then they want a doctor. Or a lawyer or an engineer or an architect. Or maybe a rocket scientist. But being successful isn't really defined by how intelligent a person is. At least that's what I want to believe. And life.......let's not go there. No one understands life.  

I just wish I knew what I wanted. And for once, I'd like to fight for what feels right. To do something that I'd want to continue doing for many many years to come. Is it just me? Feeling trapped at a crossroad with a gun pointed at my head? 

I just wish I knew. 

Choosing one option would mean that I'm ready to go into a battlefield unprepared. Everyone is holding a machine gun and all I could manage was a bow and an arrow.

Choosing the other option would kinda be a bloody battle too. I know what I have to do yet there are hundreds, no, thousands of soldiers ahead of me. 

But whichever I choose, by the end of the day, I would still accomplish my mission, right? Whatever mission that may be. It's just...this moment, right now, a 19 year old's mind feels messed up. No amount of advice is enough to clear my head and when I THINK it is, it just clouds up again. 

I don't even know why I'm blogging right now. It didn't really make me feel less heavy. But I know that this too, shall pass. It always does. 

I'm sorry if I wasted your time. I just needed to rant. Okay, I'm glad I took your time. Because this is how I feel right now...

P.S.- I'm embracing my vulnerability, unj. It feels good.


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STORY OF AN UMBRELLA

FIRST CHAPTER

Since the flood in Thailand has been so severe, some of the rain got blown over to Malaysia as well. Thus, the rain we are experiencing everyday. So today wasn't an exception as I was heading down towards my mother's office by train. Once I got off and started walking, it started to drizzle slightly and I did not want to use my umbrella as it would be quite a hassle to dry it off in an office. So, I hastened my steps. A few seconds later, it started to pour -_- Since I was already almost reaching my destination, I decided to brave through the rain and ran into the building as fast as I could, hoping to look normal while dodging the bullets of rain. But little did I know, I was already drenched. You know how they say girls look 10 times sexier with their hair wet?

Those girls;  

SEXAYYHHH~

But unfortunately, I'm not one of those girls. 

Me, with wet hair; 

NEXT CHAPTER

After my mom got off work, we headed out of the building and guess what? It starts drizzling. AGAIN. So this time, I was sure to have gotten my umbrella out and ready to prevent myself from looking like Gollum yet again. We shared my teeney tiny ESPRIT umbrella, which looks exactly like this;

and walked quickly to where she parked her car. Well, you see the thing is, the walk wasn't exactly short. Along the way, you will pass by those empty lands that were made into parking lots by having signs that go 'RM 7.00 PER ENTRY' or 'RM 5.00 PER ENTRY' and the further you walk, the cheaper it gets. So being the thrifty person my mom is, she parked FARRRRRRRR away. (I would do the same if I were her though) Anyway, we were walking halfway when SUDDENLY, it started to POUR. Yes, I know. AGAIN -_- I knew my tiny umbrella wouldn't be enough to shelter the both of us, so thankfully, there were these free insurance bags that my mom got that were still wrapped with plastic. So I told her to use the umbrella by herself and I'll cover my head with the bag instead. When I handed her the umbrella, I ASSUMED that she has already got hold of it and I threw the bag over my head BUTTTTTTTTTT that sorta knocked the umbrella RIGHT OUT OF HER HANDS! So what happened to the umbrella? It landed in a HUGE LONGKANG right next to us! (If you don't know what a longkang is, it's a BIGGG DRAINNN). 

What was our immediate reaction?

Standing there, umbrella-less. The only thing we could do was STARE. *Cues One Republic's Stop and Stare*. LOL. Anyway, I think we were too shocked so we just froze for what seemed like forever while my pitiful umbrella drowns in the sea of dirty water and soil. ewwww. When FINALLY, someone pressed the 'RESUME' button on us, my mom said, "Just leave the umbrella. I'll buy you a new one. The drain's too deep and it's too risky to go in there to get it." I LOOKED AT HER IN DISBELIEF! How could she do this to my umbrella? MY UMBRELLA! It may be tiny but it has been with me for yearsssss! I just said, "MOM! IT'S ESPRIT! And it's worth quite a lot!" (I WAS TELLING THE TRUTH). Then she just went, "Oh, then how?". HAHAHAHA! I would just like to remind you that all these contemplation and confusion happened during HEAVY RAIN. So, kindly scroll back up to the Gollum picture to imagine how I looked like the whole time this scenario played out. Thank you. 

So what was the fate of my poor umbrella? Did it drown and get disowned? 

NO! 

Luckily for us, there was a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY (X100000) KIND MAN who passed us by and saw us staring helplessly at the umbrella. Then he went, "AMBIL LAH!" which translates to "TAKE IT-LAH!". loll. He actually took the trouble of climbing over the fence and GOING INTO THE DRAIN, stepping on the tiny ledge and used his feet to hook my umbrella back up to safety! Doesn't that sound heroic? HE'S DEFINITELY A HERO IN MY EYES! I mean, come on. In the middle of a POURING RAIN, would you care if a stranger dropped his/her umbrella into the drain and was just staring stupidly at it, not knowing what to do? NO! I'm sure 99.9% of us wouldn't have done anything. Because, I know I wouldn't. There was a Chinese dude who glanced at our floating umbrella and just walked away. And the thing is, I'm Chinese too! What does this say about us? It just means MOST of us aren't very helpful people and I'm not afraid to admit it. That KIND KIND KINDDDD man who helped us was a construction worker who from my experience, seems like he's Indonesian. (Be proud, Indonesians!) So, there you have it. It takes a non-Malaysian to help a Malaysian. I'm not saying to stop, drop and roll to help EVERYONEEEEEEE on the streets but I think a show of kindness like this really goes a long way. I'm FOREVER THANKFUL to that man who saved my umbrella and you know what's the best part? When he was jumping into the drain WILLINGLY, my mom took out some money as a token of appreciation but HE REFUSED THE MONEY! Can you believe it? In this day and age, there's still a person who genuinely just wants to help out and NOT get anything in return. Can you imagine how touched I am? 

Yes, it was horrible getting soaked in the rain TWICE today and ending up having to look like Gollum. Yes, you may scroll back up to laugh. But, looking at the bigger picture and realizing how GENUINE people still exist, that just makes my heart feel so warm. You and I know how this society is dying with no one caring for anyone. So, really. I just wanted to share/ rant about this so that maybe one day, you might jump into the drain to save an umbrella for me? heheheheeeee :D   just kidding! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN! My readers have a GREAT sense of humor! Yes, YOU! <3

THE END

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ARROGANT PEOPLE

To all the arrogant people out there, TAKE THIS! ahahah. Ryan Higa's just so much fun to watch :)
Keep up the great work! :D

"Hellooo, ladies. Look at your man, now look at me. Now look at your man, now look at me! HE'S A LITTLE BETTER". 

I love how he included 2NE1 in this too :D



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UNDATEABLE MEN

So, the word #undateable was trending on Twitter the other day and I was thinking of qualities that would make a guy totally undateable to me. And guess what? I just met one in college the other day. I was rushing to class after buying my lunch and just as I was about to pass through the fire escape door into the common room, this dude (bitch!) came charging towards me. I thought since I was already halfway through the door, he would just move aside and let me pass first (like how ANY NORMAL GUY would) but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! 
He decides that his grandfather owns the whole building and he should be treated like a king. So he just pushed his way through and forced me to move backwards in order for him to go through the door first. And the worst part was, one of his friends witnessed this and said, "DUDDDDEEEE!" trying to tell him that what he has done was RUDE but all that BITCH said was, "I DON'T CAREEEEE~~~" and walked off. And I know what you must be thinking right now, I should totally have kicked him in the balls and said, "HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL, BITCH :)" but everything happened so quickly and to be honest, I was pretty much shocked and speechless. Yeah, I know!
ME. 
SPEECHLESS. What on earth is going on?

So, just a short reminder to all you guys out there WHO STILL THINKS THEY'RE WORTH BEING CALLED A GUY, let alone a gentleman, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE show some manners! Prove to women that chivalry isn't dead! Just a small gesture like holding the door for someone behind you shouldn't be too much to ask for, right? It doesn't matter if the person behind you is a girl or a guy. Does it take so much effort to hold the door for ONE person? I mean, obviously you don't just stand there all day and open the door for every single person =_______________=  you know what I'm talking about!

And it would be nice if you stop shoving all the girls you see at the bus stop just so you can get on the bus. You see, the thing is, in HELP college, we have this very retarded transportation system where we have to travel from the main block (where we park) to the KPD (where the classrooms are located) EVERY SINGLE DAY! And I'm sooooooooo sick and tired of having to push and shove my way through the crowds in order to get on the bus. It makes me feel rude too. One of my friend had this encounter with a guy who pulled her bag when she was just about to go on the bus and as a result of that, she stumbled backwards and what's NOT surprising was that, the guy quickly climbed on the bus and took her spot. So much for being a gentleman, huh? I mean, seriously, in this day and age, we don't expect you to give up your seat to strangers but what we ask is for you to show some chivalry! No, you don't need the qualifications of a knight, just treating us the way we want to be treated would be nice. I know what all the guys must be thinking now, "BUT GIRLS ARE SUCH BITCHES THESE DAYS AND EVEN WHEN WE TREAT THEM NICELY, THEY WANT TO BE "INDEPENDENT", AND SCREW WITH OUR SINCERITY AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF US AND ETC." Okay, fine. I know there are some bitches out there who don't deserve such royal treatments. So, please. Recognize the faces of bitches and princesses. If they're not giving you the "UGH" face, then at least TRY to be a little courteous.

Don't just act chivalrous in front of your girlfriends! You might just fall in love with the girl you shoved while trying to get on the bus. You never know. You just never know. 

Okay, that's all from me today! All these rant is making me tired. And yes, I've created a new label called 'RANT!' so technically, you can expect more of these random rants in the future. *evil laughter cue* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! 

Toodles! :D

P.S: Mind the language. Ooops, too late! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 


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